Wednesday, February 12, 2020

What Do You Do When the Cravings Hit?

What Do You Do When the Cravings Hit?
When you first got sober, you might have thought that going through treatment would be the hardest part of recovery. And while getting sober is no walk in the park, staying sober can be equally challenging. That’s because even after substances have left your body (sometimes for years) you can still experiencing cravings and the urge to use. So, how do you deal with addiction cravings, or the urge to use? Learning about the biology of addiction cravings and understanding the power you have to overcome the urge to use can help you stay sober. Understanding the Urge to UseMost people who are in recovery occasionally experience the urge to use, or drug cravings. That’s true for people who are well-established in sobriety, and those who are relatively new to being clean and sober. One scientific review described cravings as “a very real phenomenon,” that “often intrudes into [people’s] daily lives, at times dominating their thoughts and generating considerable distress.”When you stop using drugs or alcohol, your body is still out of equilibrium. Your brain is used to the intense highs brought about by drugs, and it’s unable to get those good feelings from everyday activities like hugging a loved one or exercising. Because of that, your body might crave drugs, in order to return to the “normal” that it has experienced during your addiction. In addition, many people experience the urge to use when they’re in a bad situation. Many people with substance use disorder have used substances as a coping mechanism to deal with fear, disappointment or anger. When you encounter these negative emotions when you’re sober, you might still have the urge to use to overcome them. How to Cope With Urges to UseLuckily, it’s entirely possible to overcome the urge to use. After all, you’ve already overcome the pull of substances to get sober and start your life in recovery. Draw on that strength when you experience a craving. Remember, you’re in control, and saying no to a craving moves you closer to the life you want. Here’s what to do when a craving hits:Ask Yourself Why: Oftentimes, there is a reason that you’re experiencing a craving or the urge to use. Naming that reason can help you understand why you’re feeling the way you are, and help put you back in control of your recovery. Maybe you’re experiencing a strong emotion, or you’re in a situation that you find triggering. Recognizing that can give you solutions and empower you.Reach Out For Help: When you’re experiencing a craving, it can feel like you’re on the brink. Sometimes, having someone there with you holding your hand (literally or metaphorically) can keep you safe. Reach out to a sponsor if you’re in a 12-step program, or a trusted friend. If no one comes to mind, call the treatment center that you went to. Talking to someone, or just being in their presence, can help you overcome a craving. Take Your Time: After you’ve detoxed and are in recovery, most cravings come on quickly, but disappear relatively quickly as well. That means time is on your side. You may need to focus to overcome the craving while it’s at its worst, but soon the urge to use drugs will dissipate. The key is just hanging on until it begins to wane. How To Prevent the Urge to UseMany people in recovery would love to never experience a craving or the urge to use again. However, that’s just simply not possible — cravings are part of life in recovery. Still, there are tools that you can use to minimize how often you experience cravings. Staying healthy overall and laying a foundation for recovery can help you avoid triggers and stay in a good mental space. That can help reduce cravings. In addition, some people find that certain activities help when they experience a craving. Instead of using, they exercise, bake, or sip a hot drink — anything to stay focused on the here and now, rather than a craving that could pull you into the past. Learn more about Oceanside Malibu at http://oceansidemalibu.com/. Reach Oceanside Malibu by phone at (866) 738-6550. Find Oceanside Malibu on Facebook.

Sunday, February 9, 2020

Hangovers Happen as Your Body Tries to Protect Itself from Alcohol's Toxic Effects

Hangovers Happen as Your Body Tries to Protect Itself from Alcohol's Toxic Effects
Debaucherous evening last night? You’re probably dealing with veisalgia right now. More commonly known as a hangover, this unpleasant phenomenon has been dogging humanity since our ancestors first happened upon fermentation.Those nasty vertigo-inducing, cold sweat-promoting and vomit-producing sensations after a raucous night out are all part of your body’s attempt to protect itself from injury after you overindulge in alcoholic beverages. Your liver is working to break down the alcohol you consumed so your kidneys can clear it out ASAP. But in the process, your body’s inflammatory and metabolic reactions are going to lay you low with a hangover.As long as people have suffered from hangovers, they’ve searched in vain for a cure. Revelers have access to a variety of compounds, products and devices that purport to ease the pain. But there’s a lot of purporting and not a lot of proof. Most have not been backed up well by science in terms of usefulness for hangover treatment, and often their effects don’t seem like they’d match up with what scientists know about the biology of the hangover.Working Overtime To Clear Out the BoozeHangovers are virtually guaranteed when you drink too much. That amount varies from person to person based on genetic factors as well as whether there are other compounds that formed along with ethanol in the fermentation process.Over the course of a night of heavy drinking, your blood alcohol level continues to rise. Your body labors to break down the alcohol – consumed as ethanol in beer, wine or spirits – forming damaging oxygen free radicals and acetaldehyde, itself a harmful compound. The longer ethanol and acetaldehyde stick around, the more damage they can do to your cellular membranes, proteins and DNA, so your body’s enzymes work quickly to metabolize acetaldehyde to a less toxic compound, acetate.Over time, your ethanol levels drop through this natural metabolic process. Depending on how much you consumed, you’re likely to experience a hangover as the level of ethanol in your blood slowly returns to zero. Your body is withdrawing from high levels of circulating alcohol, while at the same time trying to protect itself from the effects of alcohol.Scientists have limited knowledge of the leading causes of the hangover. But they do know that the body’s responses include changes in hormone levels to reduce dehydration and cellular stress. Alcohol consumption also affects a variety of neurotransmitter systems in the brain, including glutamate, dopamine and serotonin. Inflammation increases in the body’s tissues, and the healthy gut bacteria in your digestive system take a hit too, promoting leaky gut.Altogether, the combination of all these reactions and protective mechanisms activated by your system gives rise to the experience of a hangover, which can last up to 48 hours.Your Misery Likely Has CompanyDrinking and socializing are cultural acts, and most hangovers do not happen in isolation. Human beings are social creatures, and there’s a high likelihood that at least one other individual feels the same as you the morning after the night before.Each society has different rules regarding alcohol use, which can affect how people view alcohol consumption within those cultures. Drinking is often valued for its relaxing effect and for promoting sociability. So it’s common to see alcohol provided at celebratory events, social gatherings and holiday parties.In the United States, drinking alcohol is largely embraced by mainstream culture, which may even promote behaviors involving excessive drinking. It should be no surprise that overindulgence goes hand in hand with these celebratory social events – and leads to hangover regrets a few hours later.Your body’s reactions to high alcohol intake and the sobering-up period can influence mood, too. The combination of fatigue that you experience from sleep deprivation and hormonal stress reactions, in turn, affect your neurobiological responses and behavior. As your body is attempting to repair itself, you’re more likely to be easily irritated, exhausted and want nothing more than to be left alone. Of course, your work productivity takes a dramatic hit the day after an evening of heavy drinking.When all is said and done, you’re the cause of your own hangover pain, and you’re the one who must pay for all the fun of the night before. But in short order, you’ll forget how excruciating your last hangover was. And you may very soon talk yourself into doing the things you swore you’d never do again.Speeding Up RecoveryWhile pharmacologists like us understand a bit about how hangovers work, we still lack a true remedy.Countless articles describe a variety of foods, caffeine, ion replenishment, energy drinks, herbal supplements including thyme and ginger, vitamins and the “hair of the dog” as ways to prevent and treat hangovers. But the evidence isn’t really there that any of these work effectively. They’re just not scientifically validated or well reproduced.For example, Kudzu root (Pueraria lobata), a popular choice for hangover remedies, has primarily been investigated for its effects in reducing alcohol-mediated stress and hangover. But at the same time, Kudzu root appears to inhibit the enzymes that break down acetaldehyde – not good news since you want to clear that acetaldehyde from your system quickly.To fill this knowledge gap, our lab is working with colleagues to see if we can find scientific evidence for or against potential hangover remedies. We’ve focused on the benefits of dihydromyricetin, a Chinese herbal medicine that is currently available and formulated as a dietary supplement for hangover reduction or prevention.Dihydromyricetin appears to work its magic by enhancing alcohol metabolism and reducing its toxic byproduct, acetaldehyde. From our findings in mice models, we are collecting data that support the usefulness of dihydromyricetin in increasing the expression and activity of enzymes responsible for ethanol and acetaldehyde metabolism in the liver, where ethanol is primarily broken down. These findings explain one of the several ways dihydromyricetin protects the body against alcohol stress and hangover symptoms.We are also studying how this enhancement of alcohol metabolism results in changes in alcohol drinking behaviors. Previously, dihydromyricetin was found to counteract the relaxation affect of drinking alcohol by interfering with particular neuroreceptors in the brain; rodents didn’t become as intoxicated and consequently reduced their ethanol intake. Through this combination of mechanisms, we hope to illustrate how DHM might reduce the downsides of excessive drinking beyond the temporary hangover, and potentially reduce drinking behavior and damage associated with heavy alcohol consumption.Of course, limiting alcohol intake and substituting water for many of those drinks during an evening out is probably the best method to avoid a painful hangover. However, for those times when one alcoholic beverage leads to more than a few more, be sure to stay hydrated and catch up on rest. Your best bet for a smoother recovery is probably some combination of nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drug like ibuprofen, Netflix and a little downtime. [ Deep knowledge, daily. Sign up for The Conversation’s newsletter. ]This article is republished from The Conversation under a Creative Commons license. Read the original article.

Thursday, February 6, 2020

A Young Immigrant Has Mental Illness, and That’s Raising His Risk of Deportation

A Young Immigrant Has Mental Illness, and That’s Raising His Risk of Deportation
When José moved his family to the United States from Mexico nearly two decades ago, he had hopes of giving his children a better life.But now he worries about the future of his 21-year-old-son, who has lived in central Illinois since he was a toddler. José’s son has a criminal record, which could make him a target for deportation officers. KHN is not using the son’s name because of those risks and is using the father’s middle name, José, because both men are in the U.S. without legal permission.José’s son was diagnosed with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder last year and has faced barriers to getting affordable treatment, in part because he doesn’t have legal status. His untreated conditions have led to scrapes with the law.Mental health advocates say many people with untreated mental illness run the risk of cycling in and out of the criminal justice system, and the situation is particularly fraught for those without legal status.“If he gets deported, he’d practically be lost in Mexico, because he doesn’t know Mexico,” said José, speaking through an interpreter. “I brought him here very young and, with his illness, where is he going to go? He’s likely to end up on the street.”Legal TroublesJosé’s son has spent several weeks in jail and numerous days in court over the past year.On the most recent occasion, the young man sat nervously in the front row of a courtroom in Illnois’ Champaign County Courthouse. Wearing a white button-down shirt and dress pants, his hair parted neatly, he stared at the floor while waiting for the judge to enter.That day, he pleaded guilty to a criminal charge of property damage. The incident took place at his parents’ house earlier this year. He had gotten into a fight with his brother-in-law and broke a window. His father said it was yet another out-of-control moment from his son’s recent struggles with mental illness.Before beginning proceedings, the judge read a warning aloud — a practice that is now standard to make sure noncitizens are aware they could face deportation (or be denied citizenship or reentry to the U.S.) if they plead guilty in court.José’s son received 12 months of probation.After the hearing, he said that his life was good just a couple of years ago: He was living on his own, working and taking classes at a community college. But all that changed when he started hearing voices and began struggling to keep a grip on reality. He withdrew from his friends and family, including his dad.One time, he began driving erratically, thinking his car was telling him what to do. A month after that episode, he started having urges to kill himself and sometimes felt like hurting others.In 2018, he was hospitalized twice and finally diagnosed with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder.José said that during this time, his son — who had always been respectful and kind — grew increasingly argumentative and even threatened to hurt his parents. The psychiatric hospitalizations didn’t seem to make a difference.“He asked us for help, but we didn’t know how to help him,” José said. “He’d say, ‘Dad, I feel like I’m going crazy.'”José’s son said he met with a therapist a few times and took the medication he was prescribed in the hospital. He was also using marijuana to cope, he said.The prescribed medication helped, he said, but without insurance he couldn’t afford to pay the $180 monthly cost. When he stopped the meds, he struggled and continued having run-ins with the police.Undocumented and UninsuredFor people who are both undocumented and living with a mental illness, the situation is “particularly excruciating,” said Carrie Chapman, an attorney and advocate with the Legal Council for Health Justice in Chicago who represents many clients like José’s son.“If you have a mental illness that makes it difficult for you to control behaviors, you can end up in the criminal justice system,” Chapman said.People with mental illness make up only a small percentage of violent offenders — they are actually more likely, compared with the general population, to be victims of violent crime.Chapman said the stakes are extremely high when people without legal status enter the criminal justice system: They risk getting deported to a country where they may not speak the language, or where it’s even more difficult to obtain quality mental health care.“It could be a death sentence for them there,” Chapman said. “It’s an incredible crisis, that such a vulnerable young person with serious mental illness falls through the cracks.”An estimated 4.1 million people under age 65 who live in the U.S. are ineligible for Medicaid or marketplace coverage under the Affordable Care Act because of their immigration status, according to the Kaiser Family Foundation. (Kaiser Health News is an editorially independent program of the foundation.)Among them are those who are undocumented and other immigrants who otherwise do not fall into one of the federal categories as a lawful U.S. resident. People protected from deportation through the federal government’s Deferred Action for Childhood Arrivals policy, or DACA, also are ineligible for coverage under those programs.For many people in all those groups, affordable health care is out of reach.Some states have opened up access to Medicaid to undocumented children, including Illinois, California, Massachusetts, New York, Oregon, Washington and the District of Columbia, according to the National State Conference of Legislatures. But residents lose that coverage at age 19, except in California, which recently expanded eligibility through 25.For those who can’t access affordable health insurance because of their undocumented status, medical care is largely limited to emergency services and treatments covered by charity care or provided by community health centers.It’s unclear how many people have been deported because of issues linked to mental illness; good records are not available, said Talia Inlender, an attorney for immigrants’ rights with the Los Angeles-based pro bono law firm Public Counsel. But estimates from the American Civil Liberties Union suggest that tens of thousands of immigrants deported each year have a mental disability.Inlender, who represents people with mental disabilities in deportation hearings, said that when the lack of access to community-based treatment eventually leads to a person being detained in an immigration facility, that person risks further deterioration because many facilities are not equipped to provide the needed care.On top of that, she said, immigrants facing deportation in most states don’t generally have a right to public counsel during the removal proceedings and have to represent themselves. Inlender points out that an immigrant with a mental disability could be particularly vulnerable without the help of a lawyer.(Following a class action lawsuit, the states of Washington, California and Arizona did establish a right to counsel for immigrants with severe mental illness facing deportation. For those in other states, a federal program is designed to provide the same right to counsel, but it’s only for certain detained immigrants.)Medicaid For More People?Chapman and other advocates for immigrants’ rights say expanding Medicaid to cover everyone who otherwise qualifies — regardless of legal status — and creating a broader pathway to U.S. citizenship would be good first steps toward helping people like José’s son.“Everything else is kind of a ‘spit and duct tape’ attempt by families and advocates to get somebody what they need,” Chapman said.Critics of the push to expand Medicaid to cover more undocumented people object to the costs, and argue that the money should be spent, instead, on those living in the country legally. (California’s move to expand Medicaid through age 25 will cost the state around $98 million, according to some estimates.)As for José’s son, he recently found a pharmacy that offers a cheaper version of the prescription drug he needs to treat his mental health condition — and he’s feeling better.He now works as a landscaper and hopes to get back to college someday to study business. But he fears his criminal record could stand in the way of those goals, and he’s aware that his history makes him a target for immigration sweeps.José said his greatest fear is that his son will end up back in Mexico — away from family and friends, in a country he knows little about.“There are thousands of people going through these issues … and they’re in the same situation,” José said. “They’re in the dark, not knowing what to do, where to go or who to ask for help.”Christine Herman is a recipient of a Rosalynn Carter fellowship for mental health journalism. Follow her on Twitter: @CTHerman.This story is part of a partnership that includes Side Effects Public Media, NPR and Kaiser Health News. Kaiser Health News is a nonprofit news service covering health issues. It is an editorially independent program of the Kaiser Family Foundation, which is not affiliated with Kaiser Permanente.

Monday, February 3, 2020

Common Sense Recovery: An Atheist's Guide to Alcoholics Anonymous

Common Sense Recovery: An Atheist's Guide to Alcoholics Anonymous
An audio version of Common Sense Recovery is now available on Audible. Science Is Not a Four-Letter WordA lot has been learned since Bill and Bob first met. I like to think that they did not so much set things in stone as set them in motion.But we must always keep in our minds that the deep roots of AA in religion have set into our fellowship a long standing tone of anti-science and anti-learning. Religious organizations such as Alcoholics Anonymous tend to be subtly, if not overtly, hostile to new ideas, to science, to change, and to anyone or anything which calls into question their traditional view that the big and important questions have all been answered, and the answer is God.I am not an expert on the subject matter, and this is not going to be a science paper. Yet we would be doing ourselves and all the suffering alcoholics, now and in the future, in and out of the rooms, a huge disservice if we failed to recognize the ways in which a rapidly expanding body of knowledge might enhance our efforts. So, for example, there is an ever-growing body of scientific data to support the view that positive thinking and associated actions can literally re-wire the brain’s circuitry.So let’s consider just one important area of investigation which will suggest the kind of exploration I think we have an obligation to more diligently pursue. Recent findings in the neurosciences suggest that the human brain is more malleable than once thought to be. Our experiences can actually rewire our “plastic” brain. Simply put, when we form habits of behavior, such as drinking or any of the destructive habits of thought associated with the alcoholic lifestyle, we forge strong pathways in our brain, neural connections that are reinforced over and over again, becoming stronger and stronger each time we repeat the patterns of thought and behavior.The good news is that change is possible. The even better news is that positive change, consistently different thoughts and actions, will re-wire our neural pathways, literally changing our brain’s structure. The more we engage in the new behavior, the more that particular set of neurons fires together and wires together. The new connections, perhaps very tenuous at first, grow stronger and stronger with each reinforcing positive thought and activity. Meanwhile, the old pathway literally begins to atrophy from non use. The old habits fade, while the new ones become stronger and stronger with each repetition.I find it encouraging that we have this growing body of evidence supporting many of our traditional teachings. Repeated alternate behavior choices can actually restructure our mental map. “Fake it till you make it” is scientifically verifiable. “Living our way into right thinking” is not a mere slogan on the wall, but an empirically verifiable technique for altering our brain chemistry and, thereby, our entire lives. How encouraging to know that, as hard as it may be at first to have an “attitude of gratitude”, habitually cultivating one through practice and repetition can, over time, literally change the way we see the world at the most basic level.One of the more influential books I have ever read in my own personal recovery is an old school classic called A New Pair of Glasses, by Chuck C. Amongst many other insights, the book offered up the idea that god was in fact, simply, a new way of seeing the world, a new pair of glasses. This idea is suggested throughout the Big Book. The whole point of the AA experience is to initiate a “psychic change” (p. xxix), one which will “revolutionize our whole attitude toward life” and “toward our fellows”. (p. 25. Here, as in many places, I intentionally edit out Bill and the old timers’ copious references to god, spirit or higher power. This is quite intentional, and represents in fact a main thrust of my argument: Alcoholics Anonymous is replete with a wonderful and useful toolkit that can help anyone stay sane and sober if they are willing, even after we take out all the unnecessary, distracting, obfuscating religious language.) They may no longer be with us, but I suspect that Bill and Bob, Carl Jung, Dr. Silkworth and Chuck C. would all have been impressed by the correlation between this focus on a new pair of glasses and contemporary findings in the brain and behavioral sciences.So, scientific findings support our experience: we can act our way into right thinking. We can ultimately enjoy lasting, whole scale changes in our personalities through seemingly small, incremental changes in behavior. Every time we experience a desire to drink and, instead, go to an AA meeting, call a friend, or work with a newcomer, we weaken that demon and strengthen that angel. We do the next right thing and, at some point, we realize that all these slow incremental steps have produced a significant, “miraculous” transformation. Our brain is literally being rewired, slowly but surely reprogrammed.The AA tradition is to call this kind of change “spiritual” for two reasons. First, because of tradition. This sort of personal transformation, prior to the last couple hundred years of human history at least, was generally considered the sole province of religion, the handiwork of angels and deities.Second, the caulk thing again. We find the radical change inexplicable, so we apply the magic, one-size-fits-all explaining power of theism as a metaphysical caulk in order to satisfy the never-ending human thirst for understanding or explanation.Most importantly, these responses are not merely unnecessary; they are demeaning and disempowering in a very important sense. Our recovery is not up to angels, demons, or gods. It is up to us. We are responsible for taking the necessary actions that ensure the necessary changes which make for lasting, contented sobriety. Furthermore, supernatural explanations such as this give the false impression that we know all we need to about the phenomenon in question. As such, they tend to stand in direct conflict with the kind of curiosity and exploration which will grow the recovery sciences and our understanding of the relevant social and psychological processes.The Real Higher PowerThe most miraculous and inexplicable force at work in Alcoholics Anonymous may be fellowship itself. Even the most devoutly religious members depend upon our society, upon the power of the group. Often they will describe their fellow AAs, in a typical example of religious interpretation, as the mouthpiece through which god speaks to them. The fellowship is understood as a mere vehicle, or as a temporary expedient to be replaced by the real Higher Power when the newcomer finally “comes to” or “comes to believe”. But the experience of most recovering alcoholics is that, what guides and sustains us on a day-by-day basis are peer support, empathy, mentor guidance, and the emotional reinforcement of group membership. In short, what keeps us sober from day to day is fellowship. Consider these three suggestions, probably the most common ones made to an alcoholic who is suffering:Go to a meetingCall your sponsorWork with another alcoholicWhat do all three have in common? They all entail immersion in the society of recovering peers, a meaningful connection with our newfound tribe. Reams of data from social psychology, evolutionary biology and a host of other disciplines attest to the essential role played by peer groups and societies in determining both our values and our action choices, in shaping our thoughts and behaviors. Scientifically, mounting evidence suggests that the social group is the source of an important kind of basic emotional nurturance that is fulfilling to tribal hominids such as we at a most fundamental level.Our brain evolved to be what it is over the course of five million years spent in small, familial tribes, within which complete immersion and total dependence were essential for our very survival. We are, at our core, not so much individual animals as we are pack members. Gathering in fellowship is the most important practical tool we have borrowed from religion and the church. But, in the end, the power of the group is undoubtedly a little less miraculous, a little more ancient, and a little more explicable, than once thought.The tribe functions as the disseminator and teacher, the source of encouragement and reinforcement, that which empowers the addict to live a better life on a daily basis. The fellowship offers new ideas, role models who practice them, wise guidance and counsel, reinforcement of values and goals, and essential emotional rewards to its members. It empowers us to practice new and different behaviors until they become new and different habits. As time passes our membership within the tribe is the source of life enriching friendships.But it also becomes an important source of a newfound sense of value and purpose as, over time, we transform into seasoned members who reap significant benefits from passing guidance and support on to the next member in need. This life sustaining mutual exchange is a huge part of recovery. It builds a web which sustains us all, a web of support that is fundamentally tribal. Our lives are saved, shaped and defined by the herd. We survive by running with the pack. The fellowship is the most tangible instantiation of a “higher power” in our lives. I would argue that we need seek no further.For humans, isolation is death. Community is life. We overestimate the value of religious belief and faith in god: in fact, the community of fellows is the vehicle, whether it is church, temple, ashram, therapy group, mosque, sangha, a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous, or the meeting after the meeting.Keep in mind how miserable and close to disaster Bill Wilson was in spite of his life-changing experience at Towns Hospital. AA lore unwisely exaggerates his alleged spiritual experience. This was, in all probability, merely a side effect of the quasi-toxic, hallucinogenic Belladonna cure being administered at the time.But when Bill went out into the world and engaged with other alcoholics, he ultimately found what he was looking for. It was not more white light, or god, or a higher power that he found, but a drunken country doctor named Bob. The lasting good they created is a society of peers who gain synergetic strength in numbers, loving support from each other, and much wisdom gleaned from years of collective experience.The above is an excerpt from the book Common Sense Recovery: An Atheist's Guide to Alcoholics Anonymous. The book was originally written as a journal by long-term member Adam N., as he sought to bridge the gap between the religious language and perspectives of AA, and his own increasingly secular, atheistic understanding of the fundamental principles of recovery. Now in its third edition, this work continues to be a valuable guide for many who struggle with the religious nature and language of AA and contains important insights for the future of the fellowship.

Friday, January 31, 2020

8 Legendary Celebrities Who Died from Alcoholism

8 Legendary Celebrities Who Died from Alcoholism
The disease of alcoholism does not discriminate. If you were born with a certain genetic makeup, if there is a history of alcoholism in your family, if you experience worsening consequences of your drinking and still can’t stop…you might be one of us. And alcohol use disorder is a progressive disease that only gets worse over time if left untreated.Since alcoholism is also a self-diagnosed and self-treated disease, you have to be willing to do the work necessary to recover. Regardless of external circumstances -- wealth, status, prestige, talent, access to the best resources -- if you are not willing to help yourself, nobody can. As evidence of this reality, here are eight legendary celebrities who tragically died from alcohol use disorder or alcohol-related causes.1) Richard Burton (1925-1984)The recipient of Golden Globes and Tony Awards for Best Actor, Richard Burton was one of the biggest celebrities of the second half of the 20th century. He was also known for his love affair with Elizabeth Taylor. Together, they starred as Mark Anthony and Cleopatra in the mega-bomb Cleopatra. At the time it was the most expensive film ever made, and its failure almost bankrupted 20th Century Fox. After playing Hamlet in a remarkable Broadway production in 1964, critics raved that Richard Burton was “the natural successor to Olivier.” Afterward, the expectations were overwhelming. Is that what drove him to embrace the bottle?According to biographer Robert Sellers, “At the height of his boozing in the mid-70s, he was knocking back three to four bottles of hard liquor a day." Even when drinking, Burton had an impressive career. From Look Back In Anger and Becket to Equus and Who’s Afraid Of Virginia Woolf?, he gave stirring performances time and time again. Still, his fans and critics felt there could have been so much more if not for the drinking.In his forties, Burton suffered from cirrhosis of the liver. His alcohol intake bloated his kidneys to abnormal proportions. During an operation to relieve back pain in the early 1980s, doctors discovered that his spine was covered with crystallized alcohol. Ignoring the pleas of his friends and family, Burton’s health issues continued to throttle him until his premature death at the age of 58 from a brain hemorrhage. Although alcoholism was not listed as a cause of death, the sharp downward trajectory of his health at such a young age is considered by doctors to be a direct result of his excessive drinking.2) Truman Capote (1924-1984)As the writer of the novella Breakfast at Tiffany’s and the true-crime novel In Cold Blood, Truman Capote proved that a writer could become an internationally-known celebrity. Published in 1966 by Random House, In Cold Blood broke new ground in non-fiction, and served as a beacon for the burgeoning and popular true crime genre. Speaking in 1974 at the San Francisco International Film Festival, Truman Capote described his extensive research for the book: “I spent four years on and off in that part of Western Kansas there during the research for that book and then the film. What was it like? It was very lonely. And difficult.” To console himself, Truman Capote drank and drank often, alone in Midwestern hotel bars.Returning to New York after publication, Capote became a celebrity, partying day in and day out with the richest wives of New York City’s power elite. He bragged about the brilliance of his forthcoming novel, Answered Prayers. But Capote never published another significant work in his lifetime. Instead, he drank and popped prescription pills. When an individual chapter from the now legendary unfinished book was published in Esquire magazine in 1975, it proved to be social suicide. Truman Capote was ostracized from high society for revealing the dirty laundry of the rich.Afterward, according to Vanity Fair, “Truman appeared in an inebriated state on … a local morning talk show in New York. Taking note of Truman’s incoherence during the interview … the host asked, ‘What’s going to happen unless you lick this problem of drugs and alcohol?’ Truman, through the fog of his own misery, replied, ‘The obvious answer is that eventually, I’ll kill myself.’” Fulfilling this prophecy, he spent his final years mostly alone in his New York high-rise apartment, drinking himself into sad oblivion. On August 25, 1984, Truman Capote died in Bel Air, Los Angeles, while visiting one of his last loyal friends. According to the Coroner's Report, the cause of death was "liver disease complicated by phlebitis and multiple drug intoxication.”3) F. Scott Fitzgerald (1896-1940)Like Ernest Hemingway, F.Scott Fitzgerald was a respected author and member of the "Lost Generation" of the 1920s. From The Great Gatsby to Tender Is The Night, Fitzgerald’s novels revealed the luxurious decadence of the Jazz Age. At the same time, he was one of the biggest drinkers during a notorious period of massive consumption. Later, during Prohibition, Fitzgerald’s extraordinarily heavy alcohol intake became the stuff of dark lore.Fitzgerald and his wife Zelda pushed the limits, leading to extreme health problems that he denied were caused by alcohol. According to Nancy Milford, Zelda’s biographer, Fitzgerald’s claim of contracting tuberculosis was a beard to cover health problems caused by excessive drinking. After Zelda was institutionalized for schizophrenia, his drinking worsened. Fitzgerald’s deterioration was finally publicly revealed in "The Other Side of Paradise, Scott Fitzgerald, 40, Engulfed in Despair,” an article published by the New York Post in 1936 that exposed his excesses and their devastating toll.Between 1933 and 1937, Scott was hospitalized for alcoholism on eight separate occasions. During this period, he also had two heart attacks. However, he would not stop drinking and even boasted of reducing his gin consumption by consuming 37 beers a day. At 44 years old, F. Scott Fitzgerald dropped dead of another massive heart attack brought on by chronic alcoholism. It’s not surprising that he’s known for saying, “First you take a drink, then the drink takes a drink, then the drink takes you.”4) Errol Flynn (1909-1959)The greatest action hero of his time with starring roles in Captain Blood (1935) and The Adventure of Robin Hood (1938), Errol Flynn was an Australian actor who achieved worldwide fame for his ability to play the dashingly handsome, romantic swashbuckler. In Hollywood, he had a reputation for womanizing, hard-drinking, and chain-smoking. A regular attendee of lavish parties at Hearst Castle, Errol Flynn once became so drunk that the newspaper baron had him escorted off the property. Flynn later shared a bachelor pad with actor David Niven in Malibu. The party pad became so notorious for extreme alcohol consumption that it was nicknamed “Cirrhosis-by-the-Sea.”Flynn would take weekend trips on his private yacht, hosting parties fueled by cocaine, alcohol, and sexual misadventures. In Errol Flynn: The Life and Career (McFarland, 2004), biographer Thomas McNulty describes Errol Flynn and Fidel Castro meeting in late 1958 and drinking hard together. The encounter inspired Boyd Anderson’s novel Errol, Fidel, and the Cuban Rebel Girls (University of Queensland Press 2010). In The Last of Robin Hood (Samuel Goldwyn Films, 2013), an independent movie about Flynn’s final days, the aging actor’s sexual misadventures with a 17-year-old girl and the resulting scandal are highlighted. His alcoholism led to a spectacular failure in judgment that nearly sent him to prison.In his thirties, Errol Flynn collapsed in an elevator and nearly died. A steady diet of alcohol had ravaged his heart, lungs, liver, and kidneys. Still, he continued drinking, injecting vodka into oranges when he was forbidden to drink on set. When he died of a heart attack at the age of 50, the medics who treated him told reporters they thought they were trying to save an eighty-year-old man.5) Billie Holiday (1915-1959)Born in Philadelphia to a teenage mother, Billie Holiday chose her eponymous stage name as a tribute to movie star Billie Dove and her father, jazz guitarist Clarence Holiday. Holiday suffered significant trauma as a child and later turned to prostitution, which led to an arrest for solicitation. After being released from prison, she landed her first paid performing gig, and her career took off. Unfortunately, she couldn’t stop drinking and drugging.She and Lester Young, the saxophone legend who bestowed upon her the nickname Lady Day, toured Europe with Count Basie's Orchestra to great acclaim. Coming back to the United States, she recorded the most haunting song in her repertoire. Based on a poem written by Abel Meeropol, a Jewish high school teacher in the Bronx sickened by a recent lynching of two black men, "Strange Fruit" is one of the most moving yet disturbing songs in American history. According to Frank Sinatra, “With few exceptions, every major pop singer in the US during her generation has been touched in some way by her genius. It is Billie Holiday who was, and still remains, the greatest single musical influence on me.”Already a heavy drinker, Billie Holiday was introduced to heroin by her first husband, trombonist Jimmy Monroe. She was arrested for drug possession in 1947 and ended up serving ten months in federal prison. Afterward, the constant drinking made her voice rougher and more vulnerable. Her exhaustion with life was palpable. By 1959, Lady Day has been diagnosed with cirrhosis. In failing health, she was admitted to a New York hospital. Days later, Billie Holiday died at 44 of chronic alcoholism.6) Jack Kerouac (1922 – 1969)With Allen Ginsberg and William S. Burroughs, Jack Kerouac is known for being the progenitor of “The Beat Generation” in the 1950s, an American literary movement that continues to exert a strong influence on each new generation. From On the Road (1957), his most iconic novel, and The Dharma Bums (1958) to Big Sur (1962) and Desolation Angels (1965), Jack Kerouac’s work is autobiographical with the names of the characters changed and the events intensified. All of these novels read like they were soaked in alcohol. Jack Kerouac drank as he typed, furiously writing first drafts that were rarely revised.When he moved with his mother in 1958 to Northport, a Long Island harbor town in New York, Jack Kerouac’s life revolved around alcohol. “The locals remember him mainly as a broke barfly who padded about barefoot or in bedroom slippers,” Corey Kilgannon wrote in The New York Times. “Emotionally fragile and beset by alcoholism, not to mention a complicated relationship with his mother, Kerouac was declining physically, disillusioned by his celebrity and growing apart from his radical friends and artistic colleagues.” In his last years, Jack Kerouac became a recluse, and his closest friend was a cheap half-pint of Schenley's whiskey.On the morning of October 20, 1969, in St. Petersburg, Florida, Jack Kerouac put down the breakfast of champions, stumbled into the bathroom, and began vomiting blood an esophageal hemorrhage. After several transfusions in an attempt to make up for the loss of blood, doctors subsequently attempted surgery. However, a damaged liver prevented his blood from clotting. His cause of death was an internal hemorrhage caused by cirrhosis.7) Mickey Mantle (1931 – 1995)A Hall of Fame professional baseball player for the New York Yankees, Mickey Mantle is considered to be the greatest switch-hitter in the history of the game. He is also remembered as one of the heaviest drinkers in the game. Despite winning three Most Valuable Player (MVP) awards and leading his team to seven World Series victories, the Mick was beset by alcoholism. Shortly after he began his Major League career, his beloved father, Mutt Mantle, died of Hodgkin's disease at age 39. Devastated by the loss, Mickey Mantle started to drink hard to escape the memories. As he later wrote, “After one drink, I was off and running… I'd often keep on drinking until I couldn't drink anymore.”Mickey Mantle was loved by his teammates. Hall of Fame Yankee pitcher Whitey Ford describes him as “a superstar who never acted like one. He was a humble man who was kind and friendly to all his teammates, even the rawest rookie.” Sadly, Mickey Mantle played with injuries throughout his career that would sideline a modern player, including a torn ACL. In high school, he had suffered chronic damage to the bones and cartilage in his legs. Wracked by injuries, Mickey Mantle also drank to find relief. By the end of his career, he couldn’t even swing a bat without collapsing in pain.When Mickey Mantle drank, he blacked out, often waking up in strange places with no idea of what had happened the night before. At the end of his career, he admitted he had a problem. After hitting rock bottom, diagnosed with hepatitis, cirrhosis of the liver, and liver cancer, the Mick checked into the Betty Ford Clinic in 1994. In a Sports Illustrated cover story later that year, he recounted the devastation that alcohol had caused in his life. After telling the same old stories about being drunk for years, Mickey Mantle realized they were not part of a comedy, but a tragedy. When he received a liver transplant, the doctors found the liver cancer had spread. A few months after receiving a new liver, Mickey Mantle, the golden boy of Major League Baseball, died on August 13, 1995, of this alcohol-related disease.8) Hank Williams (1923 – 1953)Considered one of the most influential singer-songwriters of the 20th century, Hank Williams is the archetype of the drunk country musician. A true hit-maker, Hank Williams recorded 35 singles (five charting after his death) that reached the Top 10 of the Billboard Country & Western Best Sellers chart. Impressively, 11 of those singles reached number one (three ranked after his death). He joined the Grand Old Opry in 1949 but his stay with the renowned Nashville country music broadcast was brief. In 1952, Williams was dismissed due to his unreliability and his alcohol abuse.The holy grail in country music is authenticity, and Hank Williams helped define the word. He inspired generations of artists with hits such as "I'm So Lonesome I Could Cry," "I Saw the Light," and the classic drinking song "There's a Tear in My Beer." As singer Bobby Bare recounts, “Everybody I know wanted to be like Hank Williams. And everyone I know bought into the drinking. You figure if Hank did it, it must be OK." Beyond his music, the lasting influence of Hank Williams is what the late Waylon Jennings described as the “Hank Williams syndrome.” To be authentic like Hank, you had to drink like Hank.While being driven across the country, Williams combined chloral hydrate, a sedative, with excessive drinking, and fell into a stupor. After being injected by a local doctor with a vitamin and morphine combination, the trip continued, but Hank’s conditioned did not improve. Realizing the singer was unresponsive, his driver pulled over and discovered the worst. On New Year's Day, 1953, at the young age of 29, Hank Williams died of alcoholism and drug intoxication while traveling to a concert in Canton, Ohio.***If only fame, talent, beauty, and wealth were effective armor against the onslaught of alcohol use disorder, imagine how many legendary celebrities would have had longer and more productive careers. Can you picture in your mind’s eye the Academy-Award acceptance speech of Richard Burton? Or F. Scott Fitzgerald accepting the Nobel Prize for his later work? How about Mickey Mantle breaking the record for the most home runs in a season? Unfortunately, none of those accomplishments ever materialized because alcoholism knocked each of these legendary celebrities down for the count.

Tuesday, January 28, 2020

How I Stayed Sober Through College

How I Stayed Sober Through College
I was lucky to get accepted into one of the top colleges in the U.S., but I brought with me a serious drug habit and alcoholism. In my first semester, I would down 3 ½ - 4 ½ bottles of cheap red wine in a night, paired with a combination of cocaine, angel dust, weed, and benzodiazepines. Most nights, I passed out by 8 pm and my friends slipped out to clubs without me. Two months into college, I started collecting write-ups for violating the school’s drug and alcohol policies, which snowballed until I hit my bottom. The first sign that my style of “partying” was out of control was that three groups of friends each suddenly severed ties with me. I still don’t know what happened, but I can imagine, based on scenes I've snapped into from blackouts—my boyfriend trying to scream sense into me after I punched him in the face at a concert, rolling naked on the kitchen floor in a pile of broken glass while crying, friends dumping me on the doorsteps of psych wards. That’s how I partied.I somehow managed to squeak out mostly A's in my first semester, but I struggled to show up. I was constantly handing in assignments late, rescheduling exams, and conjuring doctors’ notes to excuse excessive absences. I was oversleeping for classes and therapy appointments in the late afternoon. At the end of my first semester, my school forcibly relocated me to a new dormitory for erratic behavior and chronic drug use. Friendless on campus, I turned to the local homeless population. That’s when I found heroin. It didn’t take long for consequences to reach a tipping point. Halfway through my second semester, I was arrested on two felonies and two misdemeanors after waking up next to my best friend’s lifeless body (she overdosed but was revived and survived). My school suspended me for a year, pending expulsion if I didn’t get sober. My probation officer pushed me into rehab and warned that if I left, he would send me to jail.I fought getting sober that entire year. But at the eleventh hour, something clicked and I suddenly wanted recovery. I abruptly left the dilapidated drug den I was living in and ran to AA meetings. I only had 30 days when a school psychiatrist evaluated if I could be readmitted. I think they saw that despite the little time I had, I was serious about sobriety. I was; I’m still sober 11 years later. And I only got through those first years of sobriety while in college because of the life I built and resolutely maintained.Solutions for SobrietyGetting suspended from student housing for two years was a blessing in disguise. I instead commuted from my family's home an hour from school, which made it easier to build a new life free of drugs and alcohol and kept me far from the parties that were definitely happening back in the dorms. I made friends with everyone in my local AA groups; fortunately, there was a community of sober young people in my area. Those friendships showed me that I could have more fun sober than I could while using, and I was never pressured or tempted to relapse. Between classes, I went to local meetings and established a second support system at school.The first two and a half years of sobriety were my most challenging. I struggled with cravings every day, so I kept recovery literature with me at all times. In the streets of New York City on any given night, I was confronted with scenes of the cunning fantasy of social drinking, passing by clusters of casual drinkers jovially sharing laughs over sparkling cocktails at posh outdoor lounges. I often walked past clouds of weed smoke and stepped over empty dime bags. Like so many of us reintegrating back into society in early sobriety, temptation was everywhere, despite my careful avoidance of people and places that I associated with using. But I always had silent support from a Grapevine or copy of Living Sober conveniently stashed among my schoolbooks for when I couldn’t call someone. I also developed the self-respect to walk away from situations when I was uncomfortable, like changing seats on the train when passengers were sipping liquor concealed in brown paper bags, or switching tables at a restaurant because nearby diners were drinking. For the first year, I took detours around the blocks where my homeless friends sat so I wouldn’t risk running into them. These extra buffers and barriers made it easier for me to keep my sobriety amidst incessant cravings.I shamelessly shared that I was sober with professors and classmates, so that when I had the opportunity to study abroad in Istanbul at two years sober, my professor helped make sure I got to and from AA meetings and fellowship in a city where I didn’t speak the language and didn’t have a cell phone. My study abroad classmates frequented clubs after class and drank during meals, so every effort helped since I had only e-mail contact with my sponsor and network. I would have similar conversations with classmates when we planned group work outside of class. They always agreed to meet during the day at school lounges, libraries, or cafés when I asked. Strategies that kept alcohol out of sight proved to be the safest for me in early sobriety. During my last semester, I got to help form a recovery group for students at my school. These organizations are common on campuses now, and some schools even offer sober housing. It took intense emotional, psychological, and physical energy to mourn my lifelong relationship with drugs and alcohol and process the trauma I had spent my life suppressing. After I got sober, I re-enrolled part-time in college and completed my bachelor’s degree over six years. My diligence paid off: I graduated Magna Cum Laude and immediately began a full-time position in my chosen field.Graduate SchoolFive years after receiving my bachelor’s, I realized my career didn’t match what I finally discovered was my purpose and calling in life. After six months of meditating, therapy, and weighing feedback from my sober network, I left my steady career job and started graduate school. Unexpectedly, my new school hosted a heavier drinking culture than my undergraduate campus. The omnipresent partying frequently left me in uncomfortable situations with my recovery feeling tenuous. Everything involved alcohol, including lab assignments and fieldwork excursions. The school even hosted weekly drinking socials, with most students slurring and stumbling by 8pm. When my cohort got together several times a week, the event always included hard drinking. I realized on the first night of orientation that I would need to double down on recovery again. Even though I entered graduate school with nine years of sobriety, I treated myself with the same care and caution as I did in undergrad as a newcomer. During graduate school, I felt I had no business in a place where the main activity focused on alcohol. When I’m tense or upset, the glamor of psychological escape can suddenly seem desirable. As an alcoholic, I know I have no defense against that first drink if my spiritual condition is anything less than fit that day. Adding to the constant stress of endless coursework, my career change challenged my self-esteem, confidence, and self-worth. I rarely felt grounded. As a result, I only saw my cohort outside of class when I felt absolutely secure in my sobriety. I didn’t form as close of bonds with them as they did with each other, but I made a concerted effort to be fully present when we were in class or working in our offices. Though I wish I could have gotten closer to them, I don’t regret honoring the boundaries I had set to care for my recovery.I didn’t have to entirely avoid being around drinking; I just had to distinguish the acceptable conditions. If an event would be beneficial to my studies or career, I only went at the beginning when attendees were adequately sober and constructive conversations were possible. Cocktail receptions and academic conferences felt safe because professional networking was the main purpose, and the pressure to perform distracted me from the drinking. I found comfort in idly sipping on water throughout the night as others do with their wine or cocktails. And as attendees became tipsy, I remained articulate, poised, and professional, and carried impressively intellectual conversations in the eyes of the inebriated. If the night turned into a party, my cue to leave was when people started talking loudly and laughing infectiously at nothing intelligible. At that point, I couldn’t connect with anyone and there was little left for me to do there. If the drinkers stayed only mildly tipsy, I ended up enjoying getting to know them because they were relaxed enough to reciprocate the deeper conversations I’m accustomed to in recovery.I was lucky that my school already had a strong student recovery group that held meetings several times a week and frequent sober outings. They became my friends because I didn't mesh with the local 12-step meetings. At this point in my recovery, AA had sadly become monotonous for me, but I was still committed to sobriety. I wanted to dive deeper into healing the trauma, childhood wounds, and character defects that continued to hamper effective relationships with myself and those around me. Over the years, I found guidance and wisdom in self-help books, A Course in Miracles, Refuge Recovery, Kundalini yoga, Western astrology, and Buddhist meditation. So in graduate school, I crafted a program of self-reflection and accountability around these practices, which doubled as solutions for stress management. I also stayed close to my networks where I got sober. Those women remain my dearest friends and strongest support. I worked closely with spiritual advisors until I found a local sponsor. Strengthening my program was critical because graduate school was emotionally demanding. It required at least twice the amount of work as my undergrad classes; it wasn’t even possible to complete all the assignments each week. The psychological strain combined with a busy schedule left little time for much else. I quickly recognized the need for self-care and balanced it with the coursework I would be graded on. I went to my favorite exercise classes at least twice a week, also setting aside time to rest and prioritizing a full night's sleep. At the end of the day, all the effort paid off. I recently received my Master’s degree at 11 years sober and it is one of my most proud accomplishments. I graduated with a higher quality of life, stronger sense of self, and more solid sobriety than I imagined were possible, thanks to the unique challenges I had to face in the process of obtaining each degree.

Saturday, January 25, 2020

Listening to ketamine

Listening to ketamine
At 32, Raquel Bennett was looking for a reason to live. She’d struggled with severe depression for more than a decade, trying multiple antidepressants and years of talk therapy. The treatment helped, but not enough to make it seem worth living with a debilitating mental illness, she says. “I was desperate.”In 2002, following a friend’s suggestion, Bennett received an injection of ketamine, an anesthetic and psychedelic party drug also known as Special K. During her first ketamine trip, Bennett hallucinated that God inserted a giant golden key into her ear, turning on her brain. “It was as if I was living in a dark house and suddenly the lights came on,” she says. “Suddenly everything seemed illuminated.”The drug lifted Bennett’s depression and dispelled her thoughts of suicide within minutes. The effect lasted for several months, and, she says, the respite saved her life. She was fascinated by the drug’s rapid effects and went on to earn a doctoral degree in psychology, writing her dissertation about ketamine. Today, she works at a clinic in Berkeley, California, that specializes in using ketamine to treat depression. “This medicine works differently and better than any other medication I’ve tried,” she says.When Bennett experimented with ketamine, the notion of using a psychedelic rave drug for depression was still decidedly fringe. Since the first clinical trials in the early 2000s, however, dozens of studies have shown that a low dose of ketamine delivered via IV can relieve the symptoms of depression, including thoughts of suicide, within hours.Even a low dose can have intense side effects, such as the sensation of being outside one’s body, vivid hallucinations, confusion and nausea. The antidepressant effects of ketamine typically don’t last more than a week or two. But the drug appears to work where no others have — in the roughly 30 percent of people with major depression who, like Bennett, don’t respond to other treatments. It also works fast, a major advantage for suicidal patients who can’t wait weeks for traditional antidepressants to kick in.“When you prescribe Prozac, you have to convince people that it’s worth taking a medication for several weeks,” says John Krystal, a psychiatrist and neuroscientist at Yale University in New Haven, Connecticut. “With ketamine, patients may feel better that day, or by the next morning.”The buzz around ketamine can drown out just how little is known about the drug. In the April 2017 JAMA Psychiatry, the American Psychiatric Association published an analysis of the evidence for ketamine treatment noting that there are few published data on the safety of repeated use, although studies of ketamine abusers — who typically use much higher doses — show that the drug can cause memory loss and bladder damage. Most clinical trials of the low dose used for depression have looked at only a single dose, following up on patients for just a week or two, so scientists don’t know if it’s safe to take the drug repeatedly over long periods. But that’s exactly what might be necessary to keep depression at bay.The analysis also warned about ketamine’s well-established potential for abuse. Used recreationally, large doses of the drug are known to be addictive — there’s some evidence that ketamine can bind to opioid receptors, raising alarms that even low doses could lead to dependence.Bennett has now been receiving regular ketamine injections for 17 years, with few negative side effects, she says. She doesn’t consider herself addicted to ketamine because she feels no desire to take it between scheduled appointments. But she does feel dependent on the drug, in the same way that a person with high blood pressure takes medication for hypertension, she says.Still, she acknowledges what most clinicians and researchers contend: There simply aren't enough data to know what the optimal dose for depression is, who is most likely to benefit from ketamine treatment and what long-term treatment should look like. “There’s a lot that we don’t know about how to use this tool,” Bennett says. “What’s the best dose? What’s the best route of administration? How frequently do you give ketamine treatment? What does maintenance look like? Is it OK to use this in an ongoing way?”Despite the unknowns, pharmaceutical companies have been racing to bring the first ketamine-based antidepressant to market. In March, the US Food and Drug Administration approved a ketamine-derived nasal spray, esketamine, developed by Janssen Pharmaceuticals, a subsidiary of Johnson & Johnson. Only two of Janssen’s five phase III trials had shown a benefit greater than taking a placebo. Still, in February an independent panel recommended FDA approval. That makes ketamine the first novel depression drug to hit the market in more than 50 years, notes Carlos Zarate Jr, a psychiatrist who studies mood disorder therapies at the National Institute of Mental Health.Thousands of people are already flocking to private clinics like Bennett’s, which provide intravenous ketamine infusions. Because the drug was approved in the 1970s as an anesthetic, physicians can legally provide the drug as an “off-label” depression treatment. Many ketamine clinics have long waiting lists or are so swamped that they aren’t accepting new patients, and Janssen’s nasal spray could rapidly expand access to treatment.But some researchers worry that the nasal spray won’t solve many of ketamine’s problems and could create new ones. Although the FDA is requiring that the nasal spray be administered only in a certified doctor’s office or clinic, esketamine is “every bit as habit forming as regular ketamine,” and will be difficult to keep out of the hands of abusers, says Scott Thompson, a neuroscientist at the University of Maryland and a coauthor with Zarate of a 2019 review on fast-acting antidepressants in the Annual Review of Pharmacology and Toxicology. A nasal spray can’t deliver as precise a dose as an IV infusion, Thompson notes. “If someone has got a cold, they’re not going to get the same dose.”In Thompson’s view, esketamine holds few advantages over generic ketamine, which costs less than a dollar per dose, although the IV infusions in private clinics often cost hundreds of dollars per visit. Janssen has indicated that each esketamine treatment will range from $590 to $885, not including the costs of administration and observation. Zarate and others are still thrilled to see big pharma investing in ketamine, after decades of stalled efforts to find new psychiatric drugs. “As esketamine hits the market, venture capitalists will come up with better versions and move the field forward,” Zarate says. Several drug companies are now testing other ketamine-like compounds in hopes of developing drugs that have its potent antidepressant potential without its psychedelic and dissociative side effects.Depression, fast and slowIn 2001, writer Andrew Solomon published a haunting description of the depression that derailed his early 30s: “If one imagines a soul of iron that weathers with grief and rusts with mild depression, then major depression is the startling collapse of a whole structure,” he wrote.When Solomon first fell ill, in the 1990s, many clinicians and researchers presumed that the pathological brain changes underlying depression were inherently slow to repair. This mind-set was rooted in the modest but controversial success of a class of slow-acting drugs that includes Prozac.Developed in the 1950s, the drugs were first inspired by the chance observation that a hypertension drug called reserpine – an extract of the plant Rauwolfia serpentina, or devil pepper — made people intensely depressed. After discovering that reserpine depletes monoamine neurotransmitters in the brain, including serotonin and norepinephrine, scientists hypothesized that low neurotransmitter levels cause depression. They went on to develop monoaminergic antidepressants, drugs designed to increase circulating levels of these chemicals in the brain.Today, monoaminergic antidepressants include selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs) such as Prozac, Lexapro and Zoloft, as well as the older and less commonly prescribed monoamine oxidase inhibitors (MAOIs) and tricyclic and tetracyclic antidepressants. Scientists have long debated whether the drugs work at all, but the most comprehensive study to date — published in The Lancet in 2018 — suggests that they do lower depression symptoms in about 60 percent of depressed people, albeit only modestly more than taking a placebo.The benefits start to show up only after several weeks of treatment, however, and roughly a third of people with major depression disorder – called treatment-resistant patients — don’t respond to at least two types of monoaminergic antidepressant.By the early 2000s, the monoamine hypothesis had unraveled. This was partly due to the antidepressants’ mediocre performance in patients, and partly to experiments which showed that depleting neurotransmitter levels in healthy people does not make people depressed. Scientists now believe that drugs like Prozac do not directly treat depression’s root cause. Instead, they think the drugs work via an indirect mechanism to subtly boost the growth of synapses and the birth of new neurons, and that this somehow relieves symptoms.Solomon’s bleak metaphor of corrosion was at least partly grounded in science. Many scientists now agree that depression slowly eats away at the neural pathways underlying our sense of worth and well-being, our desire to go to the movies or get out of bed. But research into ketamine holds out new hope that — unlike rusted iron — the depressed brain can be restored, by repairing and strengthening the neural circuits that regulate mood. —Emily UnderwoodSome researchers are also testing whether ketamine works for conditions beyond depression, such as obsessive-compulsive disorder, as well as in specific subsets of patients, such as severely depressed teenagers. Other scientists are using ketamine to help untangle one of the biggest mysteries in neuroscience: What causes depression? (See sidebar.)Seeking answers in neural wiringThirty years ago, the prevailing thought was that low levels of certain brain chemicals, such as serotonin, caused depression. Boosting those could remove symptoms.“I felt that depression needed months or weeks of treatment — that the plastic changes involved in the healing process would require weeks to reset themselves,” says Todd Gould, a neuropharmacologist at the University of Maryland and a coauthor of the recent review paper. But ketamine’s speed of action casts doubt on that idea.Newer evidence suggests that depression is caused by problems in the neural circuits that regulate mood, Gould notes. Much of the evidence for this faulty-wiring hypothesis comes from rodents. Starting in the 1990s, scientists began to discover intriguing abnormalities in the brains of mice and rats that had been exposed to certain stressors, such as bullying by a big, aggressive male.Stress and trauma are strong predictors of depression in people, but scientists can’t ask rats or mice if they are depressed. Instead, they use behavioral tests for classic depression symptoms such as anhedonia, the inability to take joy in pleasurable activities, Thompson says. Depressed animals “give up easily” in experiments that test their willingness to work for rewards like sugar water, or their interest in the intoxicating scent of a potential mate’s urine. “They can’t be bothered to cross the cage,” he says.Thompson and others have found that there are fewer connections, or synapses, between neurons that communicate reward signals in the brain in depressed animals. Other labs have found shriveled connections in neuronal circuits key to decision-making, attention and memory. Brain imaging studies in people with depression have also revealed abnormal activity in neural circuits that regulate emotion, suggesting that the findings in rodents may also apply to humans.If faulty neural connections are to blame for depression, the next question is, “How do we get atrophied neural pathways to regrow?” Krystal says.Circuit trainingThe answer, many scientists now believe, is the brain’s most abundant neurotransmitter, glutamate.Glutamate is the workhorse of the brain. It relays fleeting thoughts and feelings, and enables the formation of memories by strengthening synaptic connections. Glutamate is the reason you can still ride a bike years after you learned, even if you never practiced.Not all glutamate activity is good. Too much can cause the equivalent of an electrical storm in the brain — a seizure — and chronically high levels may lead to dementia. Abnormalities in glutamate receptors — specialized proteins on the surface of brain cells where glutamate can dock and bind — are linked to a wide array of psychiatric diseases, including depression and schizophrenia.To maintain balance, cells called inhibitory interneurons act like brakes, releasing a neurotransmitter called GABA that quiets brain activity. Most mind-altering drugs work by changing the balance between GABA and glutamate — amphetamines and PCP enhance glutamate signaling, for example, while alcohol inhibits glutamate and boosts GABA.By the 1990s, scientists had discovered that ketamine triggers a gush of glutamate in the brain’s prefrontal cortex. This region governs attention and plays an important role in emotional regulation. The out-of-body sensations that some people experience when they take ketamine may occur because this rapid release of glutamate “excites the heck out of a whole bunch of neurons” in the prefrontal cortex, says Bita Moghaddam, a neuroscientist at Oregon Health & Science University who discovered the drug’s glutamate-revving effect on rats while studying schizophrenia.Scientists aren’t sure yet how ketamine forms stronger neural circuits. But the hypothesis goes roughly like this: When ketamine enters the brain, it causes a short-term burst of neuronal activity that triggers a series of biochemical reactions that create stronger, more plentiful synaptic connections between brain cells.At first, many researchers thought ketamine’s antidepressant effects relied on a structure located on the surface of neurons, called the NMDA receptor. Like a key that fits into different locks, ketamine can bind to several types of NMDA receptor, making neurons release the excitatory glutamate neurotransmitter.This hypothesis suffered a blow, however, when several drugs designed to bind to the NMDA receptor (as ketamine does) failed in clinical trials for depression.Esketamine also complicates the story. Ketamine is made up of two molecules that form mirror images of each other, R- and S-ketamine. Esketamine is made up of just the S form and binds roughly four times as effectively as R-ketamine to the NMDA receptor. Despite acting much more powerfully on the NMDA receptor, studies in rodents suggest that S-ketamine is a less potent antidepressant than R-ketamine, although it’s not yet clear whether or not R-ketamine could work better in humans.Zarate and others now believe ketamine may work through a different receptor that binds glutamate, called AMPA. By pinpointing which receptor ketamine acts on, researchers hope to develop a similar drug with fewer side effects. One hot lead is a compound called hydroxynorketamine (HNK) — a metabolic byproduct of ketamine that does not affect NMDA receptors but still produces rapid antidepressant effects in rodents. The drug appears to lack ketamine’s disorienting side effects, and Zarate and Gould plan to launch the first small clinical trials to establish HNK’s safety in humans this year, likely in around 70 people. “I think we have a very good drug candidate,” Gould says. (Zarate and Gould, among others, have disclosed that they are listed on patents for HNK, so they stand to share in any future royalties received by their employers.)Plastic synaptic remodelersTo alter how the brain processes mood, scientists believe ketamine must ultimately change synapses. In experiments in rodents, Ron Duman of Yale University has shown that both ketamine and HNK can harness one of the brain’s most important tools for synaptic remodeling: brain-derived neurotrophic factor, or BDNF.BDNF is a protein intimately involved in shaping synapses during brain development and throughout the lifespan. Healthy brain function depends on having just the right amount of BDNF in the right place at the right time. Many mental illnesses, including depression, are associated with low or abnormal amounts of the protein. For example, samples of brain tissue from people who have died by suicide often contain abnormally low amounts of BDNF.Duman and colleagues have found that both ketamine and HNK cause a sharp uptick in the amount of BDNF that is released from neurons. This increase is required for the drugs’ antidepressant effects, and for the increase in dendritic spines — the stubby protrusions that form synaptic connections with other neurons. Both ketamine and HNK also seem to reduce inflammation, which has been linked repeatedly to the stress-induced loss of synapses.Ketamine is not the only compound that can induce rapid synaptic plasticity: Other psychedelics, such as ecstasy (MDMA), acid (LSD), and DMT also trigger similar structural changes in neurons and rapid antidepressant effects in rodents, researchers at the University of California at Davis recently found. The effects don’t hinge on getting high, the team reported in March in ACS Chemical Neuroscience. Even very small doses — too low to cause perceptual distortions — can increase synapse density and lift depression.Traditional antidepressants such as Prozac also increase BDNF levels in the brain, but not nearly as fast as ketamine does, Duman says. That is why most antidepressants take so long to remodel synapses and relieve depression symptoms, he says. Dissecting depressionBeyond promising new treatments, Zarate and other researchers see ketamine as a powerful tool for probing depression’s tangled neurobiology. Studies in mice and rats are a good start, but scientists need to study the drug in people to truly understand how ketamine affects the brain. Unlike traditional, slower-acting antidepressants, ketamine lends itself to short-term lab experiments.Zarate is using neuroimaging tools such as fMRI to study the human brain on ketamine. Past studies have shown that in people with depression, communication among several key brain networks is disrupted. One network, called the default-mode network (DMN), is involved in self-referential thoughts such as ruminating about one’s problems or flaws. This network tends to be hyperactive in people with depression, and less connected to more outwardly attuned brain networks such as the salience network, which helps the brain notice and respond to its surroundings.In one recent study, Zarate and his colleagues found that after receiving an IV dose of ketamine, people with depression had more normal activity in the default mode network, and that it was better connected to the salience network. At least temporarily, the drug seems to help people get unstuck from patterns of brain activity associated with repetitive, negative thoughts. Zarate does caution that the study results need to be replicated.The team has also used brain imaging to study how ketamine affects suicidal thoughts. About four hours after an infusion of ketamine, a chunk of the prefrontal cortex that is hyperactive in people with depression had calmed down, researchers found, which correlated with people reporting fewer thoughts of suicide.Ketamine also seems to tune other brain regions that are key to effective treatment. Last year, scientists published a study in mice showing that ketamine quiets abnormal activity in the lateral habenula, a small nodule wedged deep under the cortex. Some researchers have described the lateral habenula as the brain’s “disappointment center.” The region is responsible for learning from negative experiences, and is hyperactive in people with depression, as if “broadcasting negative feelings and thoughts,” Thompson says.Such studies remain exploratory. As to why ketamine works — and just as important, why its effects are transient — scientists are still speculating. “I think ketamine is resetting neural circuits in a way that improves the symptoms of depression, but the risk factors — whether genetic, environmental or other risk factors — are still present,” Gould says. “It seems to help reset things temporarily, but the underlying cause is not necessarily resolved.”Helen Mayberg, a neurologist at Mount Sinai Hospital in New York who specializes in using an experimental procedure called deep brain stimulation to treat depression, suggests that ketamine may be like using a defibrillator on someone experiencing cardiac arrhythmia. “I am not addressing the fact that you have underlying heart disease, but now that your arrhythmia is gone, I can concentrate on other treatments.”It’s important to put the potential risks of ketamine into perspective, particularly for people contemplating suicide, researchers emphasize. Most people are willing to tolerate severe side effects for other life-saving treatments, such as cancer drugs, Mayberg points out. “If you can interrupt an extreme suicidal plan and ideation, I’ll take that.”Ketamine in teens?For Krystal, weighing ketamine’s still largely uncharted risks and potential rewards ultimately comes down to a deeply personal question: “What would we want for ourselves? For our families? Do we want them to have to go through several failed trials over several months, or even a year, before taking a medication that might make their depression better in 24 hours?”Some of the hardest decisions are likely to involve children and adolescents. Hospitalization for youth suicide attempts and ideation nearly doubled between 2008 and 2015, leaving many clinicians — and parents — desperate for more effective and rapid treatments. Left untreated, depression is “really bad for the brain” and can cause serious, long-term cognitive and developmental problems when it starts young, Zarate says. “The question is, is that going to be better than the long-term side effects of ketamine?”Untreated depression is really bad for the brain, especially in the young. The question is, is that going to be better than the long-term side effects of ketamine?Scientists don’t yet know. Ketamine has been deemed safe to use as an anesthetic in children, but there aren't yet sufficient clinical data to show how low, repeated doses of ketamine used for depression could affect the developing brain.On a more fundamental level, scientists don’t fully understand the neurobiology of adolescent depression, notes psychiatrist Kathryn Cullen of the University of Minnesota. It may involve abnormalities in brain development, such as the way the prefrontal cortex connects to brain regions that process emotion, but “we don’t know if the brain connection abnormalities emerge because of toxic stress induced by depression, or if these abnormalities predispose people to develop depression, or if depression itself reflects abnormal development,” Cullen says. “It’s critical to figure out how to alleviate the biological changes that are associated with [teen] depression so that the brain can get back on a healthy trajectory.”Two recent clinical trials — one at Yale and another at Minnesota run by Cullen — have found that ketamine can lower symptoms in severely depressed teenagers, but neither study was set up to follow the teenagers long-term, says Cullen. Janssen is currently running a trial of its esketamine nasal spray with 145 youths who are suicidal, but the results of that study have not been published yet. Cullen thinks ketamine has potential for use in teens, particularly to avoid suicide, but “there are still a lot of unknowns.”Not just a quick fixWorldwide, depression afflicts more than 300 million people, making it the leading global cause of disability. When contemplating such overwhelming misery, the vision of a world in which depression can be cured with a single injection or squirt of nasal spray holds obvious appeal.But — despite the hype — that is not what ketamine offers, Bennett says. Based on her own experience as a patient, and her clinical work, she is troubled by the framing of ketamine as a “rapid” depression treatment if that precludes the slower, more effortful process of psychotherapy. Without psychotherapy, she says, “you’re not giving patients any tools to help themselves, just making them dependent on a molecule that has temporary effects. When the effect wears off, they have to go back for more medicine. This is going to be lucrative for the pharmaceutical company but probably not in the patient’s best interest.”In Bennett’s clinic, ketamine is administered only alongside talk therapy, which she uses to prepare patients before they take ketamine, and afterward to help them process the experience. “I think this is the only ethical way” to administer a drug that can trigger disorienting psychedelic experiences, she says. “This isn’t a ‘take two and call me in the morning’ situation.”There’s growing scientific interest in whether ketamine can enhance the effectiveness of therapy by increasing the brain’s ability to remodel circuits through experience, Krystal notes. And in 2017 a small Yale study found that providing cognitive behavioral therapy in tandem with ketamine can extend the drug’s antidepressant effects.Unlike some researchers and pharmaceutical companies, which consider ketamine’s and esketamine’s hallucinogenic side effects inherently negative, Bennett thinks that for some people the visions can be positive — particularly in the context of therapy. There’s scant scientific evidence to support the idea that such hallucinations are therapeutic, and they can be deeply disturbing for some people. (If people who experience hallucinations do better, it may simply be because they have received a higher dose of ketamine, Krystal points out.)Still, Bennett thinks researchers and clinicians need to stay open-minded about why ketamine is helping people — and be more attentive to the settings in which ketamine and esketamine are administered. “People consistently report that they experience the presence of God, or their own sacredness,” she says. “When someone comes to my office wanting to kill themselves, ready to die — and then they have a transformational moment where they believe their life is sacred — it’s indescribable how exciting that is as a clinician.”10.1146/knowable-032819-1 Emily Underwood is a freelance science writer and contributing correspondent for Science magazine. She is based in Coloma, California. Email: emily.l.underwood@gmail.com. Twitter: @em_underwood.This article originally appeared in Knowable Magazine, an independent journalistic endeavor from Annual Reviews. Sign up for the newsletter.